Two Sides.

"There are two sides to every argument, until you take one." Rather than letting these little arguments effect us, we have to sidestep them. Why don't we quit while we're ahead, before we get to deep in? The post argument happens because of one word "okay". Why? We always want to be right, we want to know we were 100% right from the start. When we know we're heading down the wrong road... why do we keep going? Why don't we close our mouths & drop the subject? Why do we loose our control in arguments? Our emoitions take over our logic. We get to the point when we're done with the other person. Over what? A stupid little fight that was could have eaisly been resolved has now turned into a battle. Is it really worth all the little arguments? Is it worth the stress of it happening over and over? When is enough enough?

Pick your battles wisley. You'll get to the breaking point if you don't.

Rollercoaster of emotions

Don't you hate it when you have one thing rolling through your mind over & over, no matter how many times you try to stop thinking about it? How bad you want to spill your feelings to someone, but don't know how to say it? My head is overflowing. I feel like I'm going to burst. I'm so scared to say a few simple words. The past is dragging me back. The feeling that you might not feel the same way is eating me up inside. My heart is at the tip of your finger. I double check every move I make now. One more mistake and I know I'm out the door. Life would be so much easier if we could just put aside the hate. Put aside the things holding you back, those stupid thoughts in the back of your mind that appear at the worst moments. The mind is a complicated thing, What do you do when your brain won't cooperate with your mouth? Why are we afraid?

I'm going to give it all back.

Have you ever been afraid to let someone come close to you, afraid someone will hurt you without even giving them a chance? Stop. I've done much thinking about the actions, the way I treat guys. With out even giving them a chance, I push almost all of them away. Why? Not ever guy is the same, so why do we treat everyone the same? I let one bad relationship effect all of my others. Second guessing everything, afraid to be committed to someone. We push away the people who care for us the most, the people that are worth fighting for. Why should they have to suffer from our past experiences? We all make mistakes, we all learn. We set huge walls right in front in front of us, some so big it's not even worth it to others to try to break it down. It's almost like we were tomatoes as a child. The slightest hit would have an effect on us. As we grow older, we turn into onions. Having layers upon layers, wall upon wall you have to break down just to get to know the real us.Show them the real you, don't hide behind all of these layers. It took me a while to realize this, but I'm glad I did. For once, I'm actually happy with someone, not having to worry over every little thing I do. Don't play these stupid mind games that we all do time to time. It's not worth the risk of loosing someone for. If someone makes you happy, do whatever you can to keep them in your life. If you don't knock down those walls, you'll never find true bliss.

Marion

 The person I looked up to the most was on her last few breaths. On the last day before she became unconscious, I came over just in time. I ran to my grandma to give her a hug and just cried my eyes out. Her last words were "Don't cry I'm going to heaven with your grandpa. I know you'll find the guy you always promised me I'd meet. I love you" Then she fell unconscious. It's almost like she held on until I was able to talk to her. I took the pearl heart necklace off that I gave her for Christmas, and put it on. Everyday I look in the mirror at the necklace, & it makes me miss her more. She taught me everything I know. I always promised she'd see me get married, or me getting in the navy. She'll never be able to play with my children, or tell them stories about grand daddy like she used to tell me as I was growing up.  I changed my life around for the better now, for her. I know if she was here she'd be proud of me. She might never be able to see my children, or meet my husband, but I know that's okay now. All she ever talked about was being able to see grand daddy again. Where ever she is, what ever she's doing, she's happy, with him. Life throws you curve balls, just rolling with the punches.

 

Rip Marion Thompson 1-12-2012

What Are You Grateful For?

You know those stupid little moments that happen in life that you wouldn't change for the world? That's what I'm grateful for. The sun shining in  my room every morning, for the pooh bear blanket that keeps me warm. My dogs running to me when I get home, for always having a welcome place to live. Knowing one more year I'll be done with school, and going to boot camp. Having a family who is crazy, who understands what life's about. For a best friend who is willing to do whatever my crazy mind comes up with, even though she knows it's a stupid idea. For a boyfriend who makes me beyond happy, like no other one has. Parents who let me mess up in life, so I know how it is in the real world. Holding hands when I get scared during movies, cuddling all night so I don't have night mares. Eating like it's going out to style, then jogging it all  off with your friend in the morning. For all those spur of the moment road trips. For all the relationships that have failed. For all the friends I lost. For all the mistakes I made, I'm grateful for it all. I wouldn't change a single moment in my life.